Life is Awesome

I've received a few messages asking for new posts and new content. What can I say? You are completely right. I have nearly stopped writing posts for a while!

Now, the great thing about it is that I stopped writing because life has grabbed me completely and taken me up the spiral of excitement, joy and completeness.

Music is changing my life in a breathtaking way. Firstly, I am making music. That itself is enough to make my heart stop. Maybe you can understand this if you are the kind of person who can lie down and while you listen to a song, you travel somewhere else, so far, that when the song finishes you look right and left to remember where you were in the first place... and sometimes it takes you a moment or two to adjust to reality.

Well, yes, maybe I'm saying nonsense here. I simply don't know how to express the joy that music creates in me. I could say that my heart goes faster or slower when I listen to a well-played theme that moves me. It does; I swear it.

So, music is not just something else in my world. Music has always been a very essential part of me. I always loved listening to recorded music or going to awesome concerts. A few minutes ago I was remembering concerts like Paul Simon's where Michael Brecker played an amazing song of himself with his weird sax and I'm pretty sure my heart stopped bumping at some point until the song ended. Pat Metheny, Pedro Aznar, Richard Bona, Mike Stern, John Scofield, and so many others.

Well, right now I am making music and though I'm ages away from producing anything similar to these heroes of mine, the effect that playing has on me is the same effect of a good concert, only multiplied several times.

I find it interesting that the joy and feeling of completeness does not come from the presence of public. The public has an incidence but its effect is not so direct. Public alerts your senses and makes you give the best of you. But contrary to what I believed earlier, the moment you start playing and feeling the music, you forget the public exists. But it is thanks to the public that you are giving the best right there, on the stage.

The amazing energy that flows among the members of the band when we are at the stage is another thing that makes me quiver. We do rehearse, of course, and we do enjoy those rehearsals very, very much. But playing live is completely different, and I'm sure if energy levels were measured then, we would be surprised.

Tonight we went to a jam session where we listened to really awesome musicians. My heart was jumping of joy, especially thanks to the drummer and the bass player. OK, I won't even try to tell you how it was like... music simply flowed, lovely, directly to the heart.

And those awesome musicians invited us to play on the stage. OK, imagine it. Imagine a complete silence, with images crossing in my head: the awesome drummer, the awesome bass player, me and my full awareness of my limitations with the instrument. That collage of images was in my head while stepping on the stage.

I silently thanked life for placing the drummer at the back of everything and everyone... and I fooled myself telling me that nobody could really see me behind the others. I felt terrified like never before. We had played for the first time in front of lots of people not long ago and I didn't have that fear at all!

Our bass player could not play tonight and we played with one very good bass player first, then with that awesome bass player that had earlier made me jump of joy.

The feelings were quite a mixture inside my chest. I was fascinated. It was an amazing honor to make some music with him. And, of course, it gave me a feeling of responsibility that was very similar to fright.

We only played two songs. But the experience was worth a week of my life.

Looking at all this from another point of view, I'm thrilled at the amazingly generous people I'm meeting through music. Every single musician I've met in the last year has been amazingly good with me. They are generous, polite and caring.

Either the Universe is putting the right people in front of me all the time, or musicians are very, very special people.

So, with all this happening, it is true that I'm not feeling like sitting to write many posts lately. But I'm more than ever applying the Law of Attraction, with obvious good results.
The two visualization groups formed with the first buyers of Thriving Together are starting sometime in the next few days and I'm excited with that too. That is the opportunity to manifest new dreams (with a little help of my friends.)

Last but not least, there is a lot of work coming in. The challenge of living as a freelancer is intact and present every single day.

Mmm... is this too weird a blog post? I can only say that it came from the heart at 3:30 am.

Have a great week!